So, upon returning to Ashland at the end of July, I had no place to stay and was sleeping on the living room floor of a co-workers apartment. After a few prospects fell through, another one of my co-workers mentioned that her mother had just purchased a mobile home in a nearby mobile home village.
At this point, some may ask why I am being politically correct and referring to it as a mobile home. This is because there are a plethora of mobile home styles these days ranging from the old-school trailer to the big modular homes you see on smaller plots in the countryside.
Well, this was one of the old-school trailers. And, upon moving in, I realized that it needed A LOT of work. A task I was willing to take up, as the lady wanted to re-sell the place in the spring for a profit. So I started looking around the place, drawing up plans in my head for weekends and repairs. In truth, I did not want to stay there. I merely pushed the feeling to the back of my head by telling myself I could help her fix it up and it wouldn’t be so bad.
Well, after one weekend, I knew that there was no way I could handle that as well as school and work in the fall. Not only that, but, as sweet the lady is, I really need a place that I feel like I can roam instead of feeling like I have to stay locked up in my room all the time. This is especially hard when you live with someone who feels like they have to talk to you whenever you are visible. Again, she is a wonderfully sweet lady and treats me like one of her grandchildren after only one week of knowing me, but I need my space and privacy. So, this began to wear on me. Truth is, it started wearing on me the minute I agreed to the arrangement.
A simple backtrack, lately I have been saying yes to some really half-baked ideas, and its put me into some situations that I don’t really feel are practical or ideal. As a result, I have been doing a lot of second guessing, which has exacerbated my obsessive compulsive nature. I began to feel anxiety similar to that which I feel when I begin to obsess over organizational details. My head begins to fill with more details on which I am capable of focusing. I get edgy, my heart rate rises, and I begin to shake. It is something with which I have always dealt. It’
s just always happened when I am organizing or arranging things. So I guess it stands to reason that it would appear when I am trying to organize or arrange my life.
Anyway, back to the story.
I was beginning to get very bent out of shape. I never worry, and worry began to set in about where I was going to stay, how long I was going to stay there, if I would find a place with some privacy, and how I was going to afford privacy as a student living on part time server’s wages. To top this all off and to add to the confusion, one of my best friends who is living in Burbank, California called and, half-serious and half-joking, asked me to move in as I am the only person she knows that she would even consider for a roommate. I can’t say I didn’t half-way consider taking her up on the offer. Which is why I’
m convinced the next thing happened.
The following day I checked my email, and the Professor of Japanese at Randolph-Macon had emailed me about a flyer posted in the mail room at school. Something about an “in-law” apartment for $350 per month. I had no idea what an “in-law” apartment was, but I figured it would be worth checking into, so I drove to school to check out the flyer. There wasn’t much more information on the flyer other than a number, amount of rooms, and “Must see to believe” in big, bold letters at the top of the page. So I called, left a rambling voicemail about being a mature college student needing privacy, and gave my number for a call back. I then left campus and went about my day praying and crossing fingers the whole time.
Around 7:30 my phone rang. It was the man who owns the apartment. He informed me that the place was currently housing a missionary couple on furlough, but that they would be leaving at the end of August and the place would be ready on the 1st of September. I asked him if it would be too much trouble for me to come look at the place right then. He said no and invited me to come on up. About 20 minutes later I arrived at this beautiful home in the woods. A good conversation, a great bowl of pasta, and approximately 30 minutes later, he asks if I would like to see the place. “Most definitely”, I replied.
Oh. My. God.
A full kitchen. A full bath. A Bedroom with walk-in closet. A Living room. Not to mention a private parking area for myself and/or guest, access to their washer and dryer, and use of their wireless internet. All for $350.
Three. Hundred. Fifty. EVERYTHING!
His only reason for renting it so cheap is that he uses half of the living room as an art studio for his painting and stained glass work. So he felt that it wasn’t fair to ask full price when he was monopolizing half of the space. His paintings and stained glass are hung all over their house and the apartment which, in my opinion, adds atmosphere to the place.
I was elated. I am absolutely convinced that God knew I was a lot more serious about California than I even realized, and that he had to do something to get my eyes back in focus.
So, things can change in a second. I try not to worry because this tends to happen A LOT. However, occasionally it creeps up on me. My biggest focus though, is to stop making these half-assed decisions when I’m still unsure about the choices.