Father,
Break my heart again.
It’s become as hard as a rock. I feel nothing. I’ve become cynical and skeptical. Critical of all things I hear. When I hear of things You are doing through others, I either write them off as foolish fundamentalists or emotional sensationalists.
I’ve lost my joy of hearing about your work. When people speak about the ways You are moving and the people You are moving through, I scoff. I’m so caught up in the politics of debate that I can’t just rejoice that You are moving through people.
You keep sending messages. You keep picking away at this rock in my chest. I just keep adding more layers over what You chip off. I just want you to shatter it. Smash it. Break it to pieces. Because I think that’s the only way You’ll be able to make it flesh again. You may have to start from scratch.
Criticism. How did I ever come to be so full of the thing I hate the most. You move in more ways that I can or will ever imagine. For me to think You’re not moving in one place or another because of the way a person or group is presenting the message is just pure foolishness. I’m a fool to think you confine Yourself to one style, theology, or denomination. I’m an even bigger fool to think that You will not move through one church, denomination, or group simply because I see their ways as outdated and irrelevant.
Lord,
Help me realize that anything that is truly done in Your name will NOT return void. No matter how foolish it may seem. No matter how much of a waste of time I feel it may be. Help me to put the blinders on and only see the path set before me. You’ve given me a vision. You’ve given me a dream. You’ve given me desires and a destiny. Help put behind me anything and everything that does not move me in that direction. That includes debate and argument about who, what, when, where, and why You are moving. Most importantly, Lord, renew the Joy in my heart.
Thank You Father,
Amen